Manuel Tim Kuß

In liebevoller Erinnerung – für immer in meinem Herzen – Manuel Tim Kuß

If Only I Had Been There with You
21.05.2025 #4Years

I won’t ask why you did what you did. I never have. I never will.
Because I know you carried far more than you ever let show.

Always striving, comparing, wanting to be better.
When to me, you were already everything,
Perfect in your imperfection.

You never needed to change.
Not then. Not ever.
You're still perfect in all you did, all you do & all you will ever be.

You were & always will be—the very BEST to me.
In everything you did, everything you were & everything you're still in my heart.

I still see you in all the quiet moments,
The light between seasons,
The space you left that somehow still feels full.

You’re in the calm, in the storm.
You’re in me.

Still, I carry 1 question like a whisper—
Would you have done the same...
If I had been there, right next to you?

Would my arms have been enough to anchor you?
Would my voice have calmed the storm...For just one more day?

I’ve been noticing the red flags—
The quiet signs,
The shadows in your smile,
The silent battles you never named.

If I’d been there with you...
I’d have done everything to comfort you.

I’d have held you through the night,
And found a way—any way—to make you stay, even for just one more day.

And yet—through the wondering,
Through the pain—
You remain:
My love. My life.
My chaos. My calm.
My wonder. My everything.

I carry you with me, always.

It’s been #4Years since I last heard your birthday wish.
But #17years & counting with your love & care,
Your quiet strength,
And the presence that never truly left.

The kind of love that doesn’t fade,
That doesn’t falter,
That never needed to ask for anything more.

Run away from reality,
I’ve been crying even in my dream.
If I can go back to where I’ve been,
I wish to hear you say anything,
Whatever you like to say to me.

Say anything,
You leave me out of my eyes.
All I can hear is your voice from dream.
Say anything,
You can dry my every tear.

Time may change my life,
But my heart remains the same to you.
Time may take you away,
Our LOVES stay...

With all the Love in the World.
Until we meet again.
Yours always,

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